Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Regrets

Guess what? I slept early and didn’t wish my friend, Kah Yong, a Happy Birthday.. The best part is, he called me, asking me to go for a game of pool.. Lolx.. I told him I was sleeping and hung up the phone. Lolx…. Disgrace man.. How could I do that? What can I do to salvage?? Or do i have to wait for another year? I don’t know...

I’ve miss it too many times.. I don’t wish to miss this again.. U know what I mean… Fuck.. I dunno know what to do..

Saturday, March 19, 2005

Feel

What a day. Went to cuppage k song till 3. Although singing ain’t my best, overall, it was fun. Finally, I am able to enjoy myself on a weekend.

On the way back (left with KY and me), I had this feeling. Each family has it own skeleton in their cardboard, which includes the both of us. Recently, both of us had some problems. Let’s put it this way, whenever it’s left with me and KY, I can be very honest with him. Towards his matter, or even my own. There’s something in him that I dun have, and I really want it. He’s my idol? Maybe… Haha…

Not bad.. Able to write out something decent..

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Too much time in hand!

Having too much time to myself ain’t a good thing anyway. These few days in office, they ain’t giving me work. Staring at my report, trying to perfect it. Seems like they are paying me to sit here doing nothing. Ain’t that great? Time, I’ve abundent of them. Thinkin of ways to spend them.

Been trying to fnd different blogs to read. Tried a lot of "blog search engines", none could bring me any good stuff. But there were some good blogs from blogger. Mostly written by ang mos.

Even during holidays, I’m always able to find some stuff to do. But days in the office are…. dull? Maybe the fact is that I’m an IA student. Not capable to handle important stuff. My most recent job is rolling my chair around, answering phones where they ring like a symphony. Cool?? They could give me a new title. Phone Operater instead of IA Student.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

** I’ll willing to be the supporting actor in your life, happy or not, I’ll manage it. If you ever find it tiring with me around, tell me. I’ll leave." **

It’s been a long time… There hasn’t been another girl, that I really want to know more about her.

"Your time will come, sooner or later.", that’s what people say. Coming to think of it, it doesn’t matter that much to me now.

Actually, I don’t know what I’m doing. I know I like you, but what will I do if I ever have you (still dreaming)? I know nuts about pacifying girls. A typical boring guy.
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Life seems so dull. Haven went for a single movie yet. Am I trying to signal something? Yes! I’m bored on weekends!!! Staying at home, screwed to the chair. Like a potato crouch. Get a life dude, you need some activities!!!
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"Whats life 2 years later?’, that’s too far ahead to think about. Lets ask, "Whats life like after my attachment, poly?". This questions seems "nearer". So what would it be like? Part-time before enlistment? Ya, most prob. Here’s my answer. So stop probing me for answer about my future, I ain’t have a clue about it.

I’m sick of this life I’m leading. I’m in no control of my steering. Floating wherever the wave brings me, till this point of time.
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Friday, March 11, 2005

Get a life!!

Kinda bored today... Haven had anythings to do in company today... Walking here and there, waiting for time to pass... Ask Ky out for a game of pool or what so ever... He told me that BWSS was having campfire today.. So i went over to see what's going on for the past year.. Nothing much had changed... Everything seems so familiar, same staff, same old surrounding...

Back to the topic, campfire... It wasn't bad, overall... But hey, NPCC still pulls out the best performance... Those guys were great... Esp jack yeo.. That guy really serious in his work dude... Manage to come out with Fancy Drill for the special performance... It was great man..

Looking at those CIs, able to mix around with each other.. Kinda feel out of place... Now that i realize how dull my life is, where others enjoy their saturdays, going back for trainning.. Me?? Sleep till 11++...

3 years of poly life gonna finish.. Yet the road ahead of me is still unknown.. Work?? Most prob.. Gain some relavant experience.. Then plan the next step, i think...

Thursday, March 10, 2005

NAPFA Test Feat

WOAH!!! Finally, I PASSED MY NAPFA TEST!! Want to see my results?? Wahahaha…

Congratulations ! You have passed the NAPFA Test and achieved the SILVER award on 09/03/2005 at Nanyang Polytechnic.

One minute Sit Up: 43 5 points
Standing Broad Jump: 252 5 points
Sit And Reach: 57cm 5 points
Pull-Up: 9 4 points
4*10m Shuttle Run: 9.7sec 5 points
2.4km Run/Walk 11:47 2 points

The result show that your present level of overall fitness is VERY GOOD. Keep it up.

WAHAHAHA!! To add on on top of that, played tennis with KY till 9pm!! My body gonna break down… Lol..
Still not enough, 3.35am woke up to watch Champion’s League. Real Madrid Vs Juventus. Shiong ar… today’s gonna be a very tought day for me!!

Friday, March 04, 2005

Burden??

Do u know that I’ve been reading ur blog daily. I want to know if u’re happy or down each day. I hope to share ur feeling. But whenever the topic in ur blog turns to ur ""friend", it isn't something that's happy. Always something that's troubling u. Is his presence a burden? Everyone wants to be happy, I want u to be happy, feel great each day.

I’m in a mess now.

It’s hard to present my feelings in words.

Lost For Words

I’ve save 2 movies to watch with her. Neither of the movies I get to watch with her. I did told her about watching with me, not that I didn’t ask. My friends did ask me if I’m interested to watch with them, I told them I’m gonna with with someone else. Now I guess I’m going to watch it alone.

If u already promise someone, u could have told me. I was about to book online yesterday, to surprise u. Just that I didn’t have my card with me yesterday. Am I pathetic? Is she trying to test me? Test my patience?? Or just trying to make a fool out of me??

Should I just stop the one-sided affair?
Should I cling on to something quite impossible?
Should I …..
Such thoughts have been going through my mind for quite sometime.
I’m Lost For Words
Got lost in this world

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Waiting for the day

Jus wanna tell you that, what I’ve say to you, I meant it. I really do. I want to be the one, be by your side, at anytime of the day, any corner of the world.

I said I’ll be the one to help you forget him, I’ll.
I said I’ll wait for you, trust me, I’ll.